#198 It's time...

Tonight I am sitting here just thinking about a bunch of things....The first and foremost thing on my mind is my weight. Over the last few weeks, it has crept up week by week. I promised my self that this week was going to be different.....but I didn't change anything. Well I changed a little, I tracked a little more (every days thus far). This is a start but I need to get back into the mindset I was in before.

I really think I am sabotaging myself and I think I know why.

First things first; I am going to say this and I don't mean to sound sad or depressed, but it is the truth and I promised my readers that I would give them the truth. That said here is my truth.

1. I feel like an utter failure. I am 28 year old who is jobless and gaining my weight back. I have no idea what I want to do next. I am not even going to get into the fact that I have never had a boyfriend. That stuff is just way to depressing.

2. I need to get with the program. I need to like the Nike slogan says..."just do it." I really truly need to get of my butt and do something. Tonight I did just that. I applied for a job at a local paper....it is a start right? Now I need to decide what I really want to do.

It seems like just a few months ago my life was on track. Now everything is just so blah. (sorry this is the only word I could come up with)

I need to get back to the nitty gritty with weight watchers. I have started tracking but now I need to add the exercise and eat a little less of the sweet stuff and more of the veggies and grilled chicken. Earlier today I had a diet coke (my weakness) and I am hell bent and determined that it will be my last one for the week. I am praying and keeping my fingers crossed that it will happen.

So you are probably wondering why tittle this one "It's Time..." Well that is because it is time for me to get on with my life.

Thanks for reading. Sorry about the vent session.