Have you ever had those days when you feel like something is off? Well for me that day is today. Have you ever wondered what you are supposed to do with your life? Sometimes I feel like I am failing in life. Right now I feel like I am in limbo in my life; I feel like I have no direction. I don't know what I am supposed to be doing. I feel like I want to serve a greater purpose. I just want to have a living in at job where I am happy and get to be in the art world but still make enough money for those who need it; I want to help those people in need.
Job Market
Right now, it feels like no one is in need for a graphic designer. I have looked and called and keep getting the response, "That position has been filled." I feel as though I am always to late. Should I apply for an internship? Am I to old? Too out of college?
I sometimes think I should expand my skills in the world of Web Design, but that cost $$$$$ (which I really don't have) I would need to buy programs or a new computer which is way to expensive. I feel like I am rambling.
I need to do something with my life, but WHAT?
I sometimes think I want to open one of those pottery painting places where people paint the pottery and you fire them and then they come back, but then I ask myself, DO YOU WANT TO STAY IN SOUTH LOUISIANA YOU ENTIRE LIFE? My answer to that question is I DON'T KNOW. Sometimes I want to settle her but then there are times when I think..."I am young and still want to do things in my life.
Love Life?
Or lack there of... I have been single my entire life. I sometimes wonder what is wrong with me? But I have come to the conclusion that right now I am not ready for anything in that part of my life. First off, I need to get my weight on track. Secondly, I NEED to find a JOB. However, I sometimes especially during the holidays I wish I had someone just for me. Or when I do things with my sister and her husband; I see how much they love each other and how much the really just like being in the same room. I want that too.
I guess I am tired of people telling me. "One day it will happen" or "wait your turn." I know all this, but when is going to happen for me?
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
#27 Reading
If you know me, you know that I am an avid reader. I read all kinds of books; I read all kinds fo genres. I want to read more. Lately I haven't had time to read because I have been so busy.
My favorite types of books are the ones with vampires and werewolves like the "Twilight Saga" by Stephanie Meyer. I love when there is forbidden love or something that isn't supposed to happen. I love books that bring you into a world that doesn't supposed to exist. I love when an author brings you into a world but through their writting someone could easily picture it in their minds.
I have been reading the book series "Pretty Little Liars," by Sara Shepard.
I borrowed these books from one of my cousins. When reading the series, I was really into it. They are an easy read. I stopped reading the series, so that I can read something else (I will talk about it later on in the blog). For some reason, I can't get back into it. I am in the beginning of the 6th book. I am a person who doesn't quit. I am almost finished; I just wish I would get to end. I am trying to finish so that I can watch the ABC Family series. It is not that the book series is bad, but it is just that the same sort of things happen over and over. I also can't help but hope that people aren't really that way; meaning that their aren't the materialistic.
Back to why I stopped reading the above series:
My friend, Carmen Folse, another avid reader. The girl reads more than me. We tend to like the same books; She was recommended numerous books to me, so I trust her judgement. She gave me the first book of the Blue Blood Series called "Blue Bloods" by Melissa de la Cruz. OMG, I couldn't put this book down. I think I read the book in like 2 days. I can't wait till I can finish the series.
I can't help but wondering what is going to happen in the series. The book was just written well; once something happens and is played out, she throughs something new out. De la Cruz just keeps readers in to where you don't want to put the books down. Thank you Carmen.
My favorite types of books are the ones with vampires and werewolves like the "Twilight Saga" by Stephanie Meyer. I love when there is forbidden love or something that isn't supposed to happen. I love books that bring you into a world that doesn't supposed to exist. I love when an author brings you into a world but through their writting someone could easily picture it in their minds.
I have been reading the book series "Pretty Little Liars," by Sara Shepard.
I borrowed these books from one of my cousins. When reading the series, I was really into it. They are an easy read. I stopped reading the series, so that I can read something else (I will talk about it later on in the blog). For some reason, I can't get back into it. I am in the beginning of the 6th book. I am a person who doesn't quit. I am almost finished; I just wish I would get to end. I am trying to finish so that I can watch the ABC Family series. It is not that the book series is bad, but it is just that the same sort of things happen over and over. I also can't help but hope that people aren't really that way; meaning that their aren't the materialistic.
Back to why I stopped reading the above series:
My friend, Carmen Folse, another avid reader. The girl reads more than me. We tend to like the same books; She was recommended numerous books to me, so I trust her judgement. She gave me the first book of the Blue Blood Series called "Blue Bloods" by Melissa de la Cruz. OMG, I couldn't put this book down. I think I read the book in like 2 days. I can't wait till I can finish the series.
I can't help but wondering what is going to happen in the series. The book was just written well; once something happens and is played out, she throughs something new out. De la Cruz just keeps readers in to where you don't want to put the books down. Thank you Carmen.
Friday, March 18, 2011
#26 Weekly Weigh-in
Last night was weighin for me. I lost another .2 (2 tenths of a pound) making my total weightloss 27.2 pounds. I have to say I wasn't too happy; it was a step in the right direction but not enough for me to be happy. I know my weightloss journey will be slow, but sometimes I wish that it would go a little bit faster.
However, I know what I am doing wrong and why it is not going fast. I NEED to start tracking. When I do track, the weight comes off. Tracking for me is a way to see what I am eating. When I don't track, I am only cheating myself. I have to get in my head that no one will see my tracker unless I showed them.
I really need to start cooking for myself; I just don't like cooking just for me. Sometimes it is a little depressing when you are just cooking for yourself. Sometimes it would be nice to try to cook for other people.
I have a receipe I want to try. Here it is; it sounds so good. This receipe was in my monthly pass envelope:
Stir-Fried Chicken with Broccoli, Red Peppers and Cashews
PointsPlus Value: 6--Servings: 4
Ingredients:
2 tsp vegetable oil, divided
1 tsp sesame oil, divided
1 1/2 Tbsp ginger root, finely chopped
3 cloves (medium) garlic cloves, finely chopped
1 pound uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast, cut into 1/2in
pieces
1 large sweet red pepper, cut into 1 in pieces
2 cups broccoli, florets
2 Tbsp low-sodium soy sauce
20 item(s) cashews, roasted, unsalted, roughly chopped
Ingredients in bold are power foods.
Directions:
Heat a large nonstick skillet over high heat. Add 1 teaspoon of
vegetable oil, 1/2 teaspoon of sesame oil, ginger, and garlic; cook 15
seconds. Add chicken and stir-fry until starting to brown, about 3 t0 4
minutes; remove to a plate.
Add remaining teaspoon of vegetable oil, pepper and broccoli to same
skillet; stir-fry for 3 minutes. Add chicken back to skillet, pour in
soy sauce and cook, stirring, until chicken is cooked through, about 2
minutes more; toss with remaining 1/2 teaspoon of sesame oil. Sprinkly
on cashews and serve. Yields about 1 3/4 cup per serving.
I will try to cook it sometime this weekend. Maybe Saturday or next week. I will let you know and take a picture of what it looks like. I hope everyone has a great weekend.
However, I know what I am doing wrong and why it is not going fast. I NEED to start tracking. When I do track, the weight comes off. Tracking for me is a way to see what I am eating. When I don't track, I am only cheating myself. I have to get in my head that no one will see my tracker unless I showed them.
I really need to start cooking for myself; I just don't like cooking just for me. Sometimes it is a little depressing when you are just cooking for yourself. Sometimes it would be nice to try to cook for other people.
I have a receipe I want to try. Here it is; it sounds so good. This receipe was in my monthly pass envelope:
Stir-Fried Chicken with Broccoli, Red Peppers and Cashews
PointsPlus Value: 6--Servings: 4
Ingredients:
2 tsp vegetable oil, divided
1 tsp sesame oil, divided
1 1/2 Tbsp ginger root, finely chopped
3 cloves (medium) garlic cloves, finely chopped
1 pound uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast, cut into 1/2in
pieces
1 large sweet red pepper, cut into 1 in pieces
2 cups broccoli, florets
2 Tbsp low-sodium soy sauce
20 item(s) cashews, roasted, unsalted, roughly chopped
Ingredients in bold are power foods.
Directions:
Heat a large nonstick skillet over high heat. Add 1 teaspoon of
vegetable oil, 1/2 teaspoon of sesame oil, ginger, and garlic; cook 15
seconds. Add chicken and stir-fry until starting to brown, about 3 t0 4
minutes; remove to a plate.
Add remaining teaspoon of vegetable oil, pepper and broccoli to same
skillet; stir-fry for 3 minutes. Add chicken back to skillet, pour in
soy sauce and cook, stirring, until chicken is cooked through, about 2
minutes more; toss with remaining 1/2 teaspoon of sesame oil. Sprinkly
on cashews and serve. Yields about 1 3/4 cup per serving.
I will try to cook it sometime this weekend. Maybe Saturday or next week. I will let you know and take a picture of what it looks like. I hope everyone has a great weekend.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
#25 Weight Watchers....
I have have lived my life as an overweight person for pretty much my entire life; I have never ever remembered myself as being "skinny." I have tried pretty much every diet know to man. Atkins, The South Beach diet, and the Aspen Clinic are just some of the plans I have tried. They all worked to a certain point and just stopped or should I say I gave up trying to eat foods that I was sick of eating.
This is the second time in my life that I have tried Weight Watchers; the first was back in high school before heading the college.
I think this time is working because I am doing it for me. I didn't join because I want to fit in a dress or shop for those cute clothes in the Botiques that don't carry bigger sizes. I joined because I wanted to be a healthier version of me. I am doing this for ME and me alone. I think this is working now because I am truly ready do the work that needs to be done.
As you can see by my before and after photos that this time around I am working hard; I am losing the weight the old fashion way by diet and exercise. I have lost almost 30 pounds in about a year. I know that may seem like and slow weightloss process but that is how my body works. I have a very slow metabolism; I am averaging about 1 to 1.5 pounds per week. I think it also helps that I have a wonderful weight watchers leader and that I attend Zumba classes three times a week.
I hope by the slow weightloss that the weight stays off. I would be heartbroken if it comes back. I have promised myself that when I finally reach goal, I will continue to maintain my weight and go to the meetings.
This is the second time in my life that I have tried Weight Watchers; the first was back in high school before heading the college.
I think this time is working because I am doing it for me. I didn't join because I want to fit in a dress or shop for those cute clothes in the Botiques that don't carry bigger sizes. I joined because I wanted to be a healthier version of me. I am doing this for ME and me alone. I think this is working now because I am truly ready do the work that needs to be done.
As you can see by my before and after photos that this time around I am working hard; I am losing the weight the old fashion way by diet and exercise. I have lost almost 30 pounds in about a year. I know that may seem like and slow weightloss process but that is how my body works. I have a very slow metabolism; I am averaging about 1 to 1.5 pounds per week. I think it also helps that I have a wonderful weight watchers leader and that I attend Zumba classes three times a week.
I hope by the slow weightloss that the weight stays off. I would be heartbroken if it comes back. I have promised myself that when I finally reach goal, I will continue to maintain my weight and go to the meetings.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
#24 Mi Vida.
You are probably wondering why my title is in Spanish and it is probably not spelled right either. I wanted the title to sound prettier than my life. Mardi Gras has been over for about a week, and I am so happy that Mardi Gras is finished. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed all the fun, but it was not great for my diet or what my leader would say "my lifestyle change." I couldn't wait to get back to eating healthier and going to my Zumba classes. I guess my life has really changed. I spend most of my days working, eating healthy, and exercising. I guess my lifestyle really did change. When you are from an area that celebrates everything from a wedding to even an funeral with food, it is hard to stay healthy. Cajuns will find any excuse to party, drink, and eat. 
I love my cajun hertiage; I love the fried foods, pastas, beniets, pralines, etc., but I don't think my body could handle it anymore. Now when I eat, my body almost automaticially starts to tire and all I want to do is crawl on my couch, turn the tv on and take a nap.
Growing up on the bayous of Lafourche Parish, I saw Mardi Gras every year. I guess it is like if I lived in Orlando, Walt Disney World would be something special to me. Outsiders might think what is the girl saying? Is she over Mardi Gras? It is not that I am over it. I love all the art of the floats and the marching bands, but i am over all the crazy people who would steal a plastic cheap bead from a child.
I love my cajun hertiage; I love the fried foods, pastas, beniets, pralines, etc., but I don't think my body could handle it anymore. Now when I eat, my body almost automaticially starts to tire and all I want to do is crawl on my couch, turn the tv on and take a nap.
Growing up on the bayous of Lafourche Parish, I saw Mardi Gras every year. I guess it is like if I lived in Orlando, Walt Disney World would be something special to me. Outsiders might think what is the girl saying? Is she over Mardi Gras? It is not that I am over it. I love all the art of the floats and the marching bands, but i am over all the crazy people who would steal a plastic cheap bead from a child.
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