WARNING!!!! THIS IS SORT OF A RANT!!
I need to get back on track. I think I have lost my motivation just a little bit. Don't get me wrong, I have come a long way. Right now my total weightloss is 31.2 pounds lost, which is awesome, but I just wish it would come off a little bit faster. I know I will have to constantly watch my weight my entire life, but I am dertermined that I will never gain it back.
I had made this ridiculous goal that in 20 weeks I will lose 20 pounds averaging about a pound a week. So far, I haven't lost a pound a week. Some kind of way I need to get my motivation back, but I think I need a little push in the right direction. I am still losing, but at very slow weight. My goal now is that I would like to lose 20 but if that doesn't happen, I would hope to lose 10 pounds.
I havd developed a little bit of a pattern. It seems that when I move into a new decade, meaning that when I hit 20 or 30 pounds lost, the weightloss slows. Sometimes I feel as though I am sabatoshing (probably not spelled right) myself; it is like sometimes I don't want to lose the weight because I don't want to added attention.
I know what I need to do. NOW I just have to do it. I started tracking this week, which is good cause I had stopped tracking. Lets just hope I can keep it up. I need to get back to Zumba. I feel so guilty cause I haven't gone this week, but it was a holiday on Monday. It will help with the added stress of finding a job. I have been actively looking, but it seems like no one is hiring. I guess I am a little frustrated with it, but I keep praying about it, and I am sure God will lead me in the right direction.
Thanks for allowing me to rant just a tad. I hope I can get back my motivation....
