#209 Weekly Weigh In

I meant to post this last night when I got home from Weight Watchers, but I think subconsciously didn't want to admit it to myself or to the world, but my weight is creeping up again. I had a gain which I am very disappointed in myself for. However, I am still around 30 pounds lost.

I know I am the only one who can control what I do. Yes....I am tracking, religiously. Don't get me wrong, I am proud of myself of what I am actually tracking, but I really need to get back on the ball and actually follow the plan. It is one thing to track but it is an entire different thing then to eat healthier.

For one thing, with my new job (I will chat about that later), I earn about 2 to 3 activity points everyday without even trying. That's more than I was getting before. Now if only I could do some stuff after. Anyway....I start going back to Zumba at the YMCA. 1) It is like 5 minutes from work, and 2) I am going with my cousin. When she gets back from her vaca, I am going to join.

Ms. Cindy, my Weight Watchers leader, was telling a story about another member at another meeting. She was telling us how this person after some thought figured out she wasn't moving past a certain amount of weight because she didn't feel like she deserved this. This really hit home for me. I guess I have always felt like the "fat" one of the bunch. I know that is blunt, but it is sort my reasoning. Anyway, I have always been overweight. I don't ever remember being small even as a kid. So, I think, subconsciously that I don't really think I deserve to be "skinny." I think I have a mental block in my head that says when I reach 30 pounds loss I can't go higher. So I "let" my weight creep back up.

Another reason for the weight gain: So at my new job, there is this bag of small little bit size Hershey candies that just call my name. Some kind of way, I need to find someway not to eat them, but they are just too tasty.

NEW JOB
So if you follow me on Facebook, you know I have a new job. I am so happy with that job. I enjoy going to work. I am learning an entire new aspect of the graphic design business. That side is the Printing side of it. I am learning so much. Added to all that, I get to do my passion which is to create things for others. (I actually have a graphic design job. a job where I can actually use my degree.)

So I guess I need to sign off for the night. Sweet Dreams everyone!!!!